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Episode 11 · 1 year ago

F**k Everything

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

Desperate times call for foul language, best friend vent sessions, and possible workplace hookups, if Noah is down.

Never in my life has a Monday felt lesslike one day and more like an entire sucking week, walking quickly back tomy office. I closed the door firmly behind me and fall into the plush ivorydecorative chair in the corner, rubbing my temples with my index fingers what a fucking day I don't know what's wrong with peoplelately, but every conversation I've had today seems to be ending in a heated,angry mess. And, honestly I just can't anymore. I'm done take me out coach. Ineed a cold bottle of rose and the ratty pair of sweat pants. I reservefor only the darkest dirist of occasions I groan reaching for the object. That'sbecome a freaking torture device in the...

...past six hours, but when I glance at itI'm relieved to find Cleo's name waiting for me, along with a series oftexts that look graciously deliciously distracting hegrirl. I already knowthat something's up, if she has something fun or random, to tell meshe'll, just say it if she feels the need to greet me. Something is simplynot right, so me and Bo are done. I told him not to call me anymore turnsout. He had a threesum the other night at the Club at the club he fucked themhalf the club in some back room anyway, like power to those. Ladies, I guess,but that's not what I'm looking for right now, he's dumb enough to refuseto use condems and, frankly, no thank you. My heart breaks a little for Cleo,even if things with BA weren't serious...

...it sucking sucks to realize you can'ttrust the person you're sleeping with whether you have feelings for them ornot. I type back fuck that Assele you cansuck a Dick, I'm sure he will. I didn't know he wasby he's Pan Actually, which is part ofwhat I liked about him. But the whole lack of communication thing is a Ogofor me. You know what that's fucking, fair, I'm so proud of you for standingup for yourself, I'm just at this point now, where I'mdone fucking around in all aspects of my life dawn with these Shitty dudesdone with these shitty jobs done acting like I don't deserve to go after mydreams. Buck, yes see, I love it. You are a goddess. I think it's time for me to starttaking myself more seriously, I'm a fucking good actress, I'm going to getout there and land some jobs. Yes, yes, yes, I punctuate each word with aclapping Emogi, I'm setting a goal for...

...myself right now, I'm going to landthree new jobs by the end of the year. Okay, damn you got this seacleogoes onabout everything she wants to achieve by the end of the year, but I can'tignore the sinking feeling in my gut since everything started with Noah.I've lost some of my drive at work. All of that focus and energy. I used todirect toward helping my clients and advancing. My career has been suckedinto this stupid adolescent. Will they or won't they all for some guy? I usedto know whoby. The way will be flying the fuck out of here. In all of tendays, my performance at work hasn't dropped by any means, but I've beendistracted. I can't deny that I've got to figure the shit out one wayor the other. This whole sea saw roller coaster. HyDrama Bullshit needs to end, like...

...yesterday, a notification on my phone pops up,reminding me about a call with my mom right on ce, her name and picture lightup. My screen. I take a deep breath before answering: Hey mom, oh hisweetheart. How are you doing today? I'm good! You know you know just thesame old same old, Oh yeah house work. Lately, it's fine about the same anyword on that promotion like fucking clockwork. I rake my fingers through myhair and do my best to suppress the heavy sigh welling up within me. Myvoice is tight when I manage to reply not yet but I'll. Let you know as soonas I know. Okay, Sweetheart I'll just know your father and I are praying foryou lucky for me. My mother is so worried I'll, never come back home thatshe always does her best to keep the pece thanks. Mom How's dad he's five fine, actually he'slooking into planting some milkwheed...

...soon. You know the plant, that's goodfor the monarch, butterflies, oh good! For him! That's great! I Walk back overto my desk and plop down to scan and sort through my inbox heydid. You evergo looking for that drain snake. Your father was telling you about. We don'twant you flooding that Nice bathroom of yours by accident. No, I didn't have toNoa fixed it for me last week, Noo. So my heart drops and the silence on theline is deafening. That's what I fucking get for trying to multitask ona day as cursed as this one. No one mom, just some guy, I M atRoughcleo I trie to sound as casual as possible to throw her off the scent. Ifmy mom finds out we've been spending time together, I'm screwed I'm talkingthe guilt trip of the lifetime. Screwed you'ret talking about no blom. Are Youmy heart drops even lower welt. Here we...

...go. I keep my voice light and casual, butLord knows this. Woman knows something what makes you ask that Jodie Penkerton heard from Marchi Woodslast week and no one was in New York for some business camper or something,and we werejust wondering if you two might run into each other, suckingsmall towns. I should have known she'd find out. He was here eventually it's abig city, mom, there's a better chance of me running into bionse than there isof me. Seeing someone from our dinky little town he's only well Jodi saidher son heard Mason bloomtelling everyone at the bar that his brotherran into with some fancy New York party a couple of months ago. Are you sayingMason Bloom as a Liar God? Damn it? The woman might not havea subtle bone in her body, but she can be sneaky when she really sets her mindto it.

At least, she hasn't found out that hisprogram is in the same building as my office. If she got her hands on thatInfo, I'd never hear the end of how that was a sign from God and we weremeant to find each other. How long have you been sitting on this mom? Oh, notlong! I was hoping you would tell me about it and passing on your own, butnow that you tried to hide it, I'm wondering if you did more than just runinto each other. Her voice is so suggestive. I can practically hear hereyebrows wiggling through the phone Jesus mom. Can we not I'm just saying Ialways did like the bloomboys inlest be on a sweetheart you're, not getting anyyoung? Oh my God, mother! Please stop! If you settle down with Noah, we canhave the ceremony here, atd Sait Lok and then your father and I can be closeto our grandchildren. We need risk management here in Indiana, just asmuch as those fancy corporations do in New York. I lean back in my chair andbrace myself for the guilt trip. It's...

...the same. Damne story. I hear everytime my mother can cak some new outlandish plan to get me to come backhome. How she wants me to pop out a minimum of five babies, settle downwith a nice Christian man and leave the big harsh city behind. It's onlyrecently that she's added the concession of me continuing my work inthis fantasy because you know equality uask. No, he to turn about your senioryear. I'm sure I've got a picture of that somewhere. I can hear herputtering around the house rummaging through her various storage, bins andscrapbooks, for any evidence that I was happy in that town at one time, MHMright before I got accepted into my top choice, school and moved to New York tofollow my dream right. Sweetie, Oh weet hard! You too were just themost btiful couple. TAT tress hold on I'll. Send you a photo.

I'm braded by a series of loud tappingsounds as my mother attempts to navigate away from the call and intoher camera. I know that if I let this continue I'll be stuck on the other endof this phone call for the next half hour Momma'am, I yell just loud enough thatshe'll hopefully hear me with the phone held at arms length. It doesn't workand she keeps tapping somehow directly into the Mike so much so that I put mycone on Speaker, set it on my desk and continued sorting through my email.Finally, after a solid five minutes of tapping and crustrated gruns and tisksfrom my mother, she brings the phone back to her face exasperation thick inher voice. I can't get the Stang phone to focus. Why don't I ask your fatherfor helpand. Send it to you later sounds great mom. He listen. I've gotto go. I've got a meeting with a new...

...client in a couple of minutes. Now itseems awfully late for a business meeting even for New York Standards Yep.It was the only time that worked. Thimom, I'll talk to you next week.Okay, Sweetheart Love, you w you too and tell no, I say: Hi, okay, Sur, mombyebye. I hang up and press send on the emailtelling my coworker I'm leaving early and Wi'll finish up the day from home,throwing my purse trap over my shoulder. I quickly duck out of the officepulling up Noah's contact and starting a text six floor. Bathroom. Ten minutesurgent, I add an egg Plantamogi, so he gets the message. Please have glasstoday, please have class. Today, please have class today, five kids, a mortgage and a picketfence in Indiana. My ask if I was confused about what I wanted from Noahbefore that call with my mom solidified it. For me, the last thing I'm lookingfor is any kind of commitment what's...

...happening between us is physical, plainand simple, and if he's looking for something else well, that's sat. I guess I get a message as I reach the elevatorand I stop to check it before I lose service. It's a tax from Nila Putimojiforshemark, that's more fucking! Like it don't know. Ten Week, turnabout iswritten by Amelia J rose produced by consensual, creating steamy feministfirst romance for riotal special thanks to baby money and the downpainness forthe use of our theme, Song, O boy head, sound engineer, John mcneal mixing bySpiral Ligkt creatives mastering by even Gevor followas act, Consento podon instagram and follow at D Noerlan and at D Ingerdealer to watch this lovestory play out on your inscruentfe.

This episode was performed by AlisonBrishaw Travistana, who Nadiapelotie and Stephane Lie Tunein next week tohear Noah realize we've had plenty of sex and all different kinds of ways,but nothing. We've done has ever felt like this before thishonewr this nteret.

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